the 3 last poems

.:1:.
Semua yang kurasa
Semua yang kulalui
Semua yang indah
Dan semua yang sedih
Yang selalu ada dihatiku
Takkan bisa terganti
Takkan pernah hilang
Da takkan bisa terhapus
Terlalu indah
Terlalu sulit
Terlalu sakit
Dan terlalu rumit
Andai ku bisa
Tuk putar waktu kembali
Kan kujaga
Meskipun sakit
Aku kan selalu sabar
Tuk menunggumu
Walau ramainya suasana
Takkan mengubah hatiku yang kosong




.:2:.
Kau yang selalu
Kudamba
Kupuja
Dan kubanggakan
Tak kusangka
Tega katakan itu
Kau biarkan
Kujalani hidup
Sendiri tanpamu
Kau kira kudapat bertahan
Terlalu sulit
Kau biarkan
Aku sakit disini sendiri
Aku yang selalu takut
Akan kehilanganmu
Kehilangan cinta dan kasihmu
Ternyata telah terjadi


.:3:.
Andai kau tahu
Andai kau pahami
Andai kau mengerti
Andai kau mau berbagi
Ku coba semua itu
Ku coba sabar
Ku coba beri waktu
Ku coba beri kepercayaan
Mungkin
Kita tak dapat bersama
Tuk saat ini
Tapi kuterus percaya
Akan kebesaran-Mu
Tuhan...
Aku mencintainya
Dengan segenap hatiku
Tapi keadaan
Yang memaksaku begini
Tolonglah Tuhan
Berikan aku kekuatan
Tuk menjaga rasa itu
Di hatiku yang terdalam


.:Note:.
Maafin aku Kk', aq gak bisa
ngomong didepanmu, aq gak kuat...
aq cuma bisa nangis...
Aku percaya dengan jodoh...
Aku harap kamu bisa tau
Apa yang aku rasain kekamu...
Maafin y...
Makasih banyak...
Buat semua...

some special

special in my eyes

since you're in my life

always on my mind

so special in my eyes



everyday and night

i feel like i found home

i can't wait til the sun comes down

cause a good girl is so hard to find



i wanna be your number one

without you i'm half blank like minus one

i think about you all the time

before i go to sleep everynight



ur first thing in the morning

got you inside me since day one

bury me six feet deep underground

it's crazy, yeah you proudly would

pray for your love too

if you was in my shoes



when you down i got you chill

towards you i stay class til forever still

i'm drawn to be down with you

in my arms girl

you'd be safe inside



eventhough you play hard to get

i never expect you would like me back

it's hard to believe we connect

day by day we seize down the gap

to the sky we fled



i still remember the first time we met

arbitary girl is like a fairy tale

it fast left me drain completely

and ever since then

i blend with my misery



but everything is different now

coming at you is the ring and the wedding gown

you gotta be around when i'm down

be a good friend, the most profound



cause i'm gonna do the same thing

without you i'm senseless

cause you're my instinct



everything is gonna be alright

trust me cause i'm giving you my life

how do i get you to understand

i gotta have you more than just best friend



i gotta have you to be my last

i don't want you to be my past

baby no doubt, in a matter of fact

i wanna be your future

Miss U

I miss you



dear my ex star in heaven...

I miss all the things with you...

I miss th etime I had spend with you last 18th month...

I miss your lips...

I miss your touch...

I miss your joke...

I miss you make me happy...

I miss your smell...

I miss to figt with you...

I miss your hug...

I miss to hug you...

I miss your kisses...

I miss to kiss you...

I miss all the thing inside you...



why did so fast you find my replacement???

only for one month???

I hope he will make you happy...



forget me from your life...

but still remember me in the deepest of your heart...



goodbye my ex...

I hope you will be happy with him...

as lomg as you knew that I still care about you...

I still kept you in my memory...

you're the beautifull thing that happend to me...

myLife

myLife



i don't know what about to write, but

I have a confused Life that I had to run within

I'am a man who lose everything good in my entire life

first of all I lose my lovely girl,

and now on just a few of time she had my replacement

with terrible excuses, anyway I had to survive

she said that the replacement boy

is to erase me from her life

but I thingk that not an excuse...



many poems said that

"love doesn't have to be together, but to see she is happy"

if that so I will release her wisely....



but many of another girl extremely came in to my life

did this is the path from God for me to survive???

if that so I have to thanks to God for the path...



did I got wrong if I had her in my heart???



some time I miss she call me "ndut",

I miss her touch,

I miss her smile,

I miss her smells,



anyway I had to forget her completely...



I don't know what really happend to my live...

there is one girl that came to my live,

she is so attractive girl...

but I don't really know my feeling with her...

and I do have go out with her sometimes...

she is so cheerfull girl

till now I still don't know what to do with her...

what I suppost to do to fill my heart???



at the dark of night, I had a message from a mysterious girl

she said that she know me from "Friendster"

and that night she wants me to be her boyfriends...

what I suppost to do???

I don't really know her, I never see her in my life

till now I still don't know her face...



what path I suppost to do???



do I have to choose between two girls???

or I have to go out with both of them???